October 31, 2012

All the Pretty Lights

I recently had an interesting dream. I was in a place where there were all these pretty lights. I couldn't tell if I was indoors or outdoors. All I knew was that I was surrounded by all these beautiful lights and the lights drowned out anything that could have possibly been there with those lights. The setting was just so quiet, calming and beautiful. I couldn't even tell where the lights were coming from exactly, I just knew that they were bouncing off from all over the place, particularly on these things that were hanging from above me.

Again, I can't tell where they were hanging from or what they were exactly. They looked like paper spirals that keep twirling around from overhead. I'm not sure if they were the source of the lights, but they all had this glow of many different colors as they slowly twirled around. I remember touching one and it felt so soft in my dream.

The lights were all soft, not too bright but glowing.  There were peach and pink lights, cream, light blue, light purple (lilac?) and light yellow lights from what I remember. I just had to look up the dream interpretation for all this because I couldn't get over the whole thing.

October 07, 2012


I've been wanting to blog for so long but I haven't had the drive to do so.  I'm just so uninspired.

Things haven't been going my way as far as personal goals go.  It's been disappointing and it has left me without much to look forward to.  I guess that's the reason for the lack of inspiration.  Well, that and the fact that I have had no social life whatsoever in the past few months.  It's hard to get inspired when you do the same things and see the same people and places over and over again.

My life has been all about work and family responsibilities these days.  There hasn't been any room for myself -- unless you call sleeping "me time."  Even if I did have time for myself, it hasn't been very productive because I haven't been inspired.  Everywhere I look I've felt "blah." Everything I see screams out "blah."

I need something to look forward to.  I need something to be excited about.  I miss being excited about doing creative things.

I am in such a rut! I need a vacation somewhere.  Someplace where I can be inspired again.  I wonder when I'll ever have that considering how busy I've been. *Sigh*

My days feel like quicksand.  I'm stuck.  If I struggle with it I sink deeper so I have no choice but to stick to the status quo.  I have so many dreams and goals and none of them seem to be working out.

Oh well.  They say that when you're down the only way to go is up.  I'm just going to wait for that.

August 21, 2012

Everything and Nothing

 In 1992, a shipping container fell overboard on its way from China to the United States, losing 29,000 rubber ducks in the Pacific Ocean. Ten months later, the first of these rubber ducks was washed ashore on the Alaskan Coast. Since then, these ducks have been found in Hawaii, South America, Australia, and traveling slowly inside the Arctic Ice. But 2,000 of the ducks were caught up in the North Pacific Gyre. A vortex of currents moving between Japan, Alaska, the Pacific Northwest and the Aleutian Islands. Items that get caught in the gyre usually stay in the gyre. Doomed to travel the same path, forever circling in the same waters, but not always. Their paths can be altered by a change in the weather, a storm at sea, a chance encounter with a pod of whales, Twenty years after the rubber ducks were lost at sea, they are still arriving on beaches around the world. And the number of ducks in the gyre has decreased, which means it's possible to break free, even after years of circling the same waters. It's possible to find a way to shore. (Jake, Touch

Sometimes I feel like a little hamster running on a wheel and stuck in a cage.  I keep running and running but I'm not going anywhere.  It's the same thing for me every day: same life, same job, same routine...everything is the same.  It's easy to advise someone to just change the routine and make everything different but life is not that simple, especially when you have so many people who depend on you.

July 22, 2012

One Day

One of the things that I've always wanted to try is wall climbing. I wish I could say I want to try climbing in general but the thought brings to mind a scene from the movie Vertical Limit. That scene where they had to cut off one of the people on the rope at the start of the movie is too scary for me.  I'd rather stick to a controlled environment for the sake of my clumsy body.

I've always been fascinated with wall climbing but I haven't tried it because I can't get anyone I know to go and try it with me.  The closest I can get anyone from my inner circle close to a climbing wall is to watch someone else giving it a try and watching that person climb all the way to the top.

I'd love to try wall climbing one day.  When I check that off my bucket list, I'd love to give this big thing a try:

July 20, 2012

Bus Tales

Before I decided to moderate my time on Twitter, I had this habit of tweeting about the things I notice when I ride the bus. I’ve had some of the most unusual experiences that a friend of mine commented that I was a magnet for the quirky when I commute.

Why do I commute? The obvious (and most common) reason for anyone who commutes: I don’t have a car.  Why don’t I have a car? Because when I look at car prices and think about how I can buy a tiny but decent home with that money, I’d rather save up for a home that will appreciate than a vehicle that will depreciate in value. I also worry about my carbon footprint (yes, I’m one of those people): how much gas will I consume using a car on my own when I can simply join the masses in public transport to save energy? Besides, do I really want to add to the already impossible traffic in the country? No, thank you.

Buses for me have been my main mode of transport since the time I was in high school. Even if our family had a car, my parents taught me the value of learning how to take public transport and it’s something that I now depend on to get from one place to another. The experience can either be a tiring experience or an interesting one, depending on how you look at it.

I’ve been on buses who have drivers who think that they’re training for the F1 when the highway is clear. It’s a bit freaky sitting down, but when you’re made to stand it’s like you’re surfing whenever you try to find your balance with every turn. Some also have very interesting parking skills, as can be seen in the photo in this entry.

There are buses with the crazy horns. There was one time that I kept looking around the bus for a cat because I could hear one screeching only to realize it was actually the bus’ horn that was making that sound. The bus driver was obviously a fan of odd sounds because I later found out that his phone had a crowing bird for a message tone.

July 19, 2012

A New Approach

When I was younger, I was one of the girls who ate what she wanted, didn't exercise and never got fat. Yes, I was that girl that people hated for that metabolic anomaly. I'd bet that there was at least one person who secretly wished that I started gaining weight so I can be just like all the other girls who had to diet and work out like crazy to maintain a certain weight.

To that person who made that wish, I hope you're happy because I have gained weight. Lots of it.

The first time I gained weight I thought that I'd work out a bit, get it off and then forget about it. WRONG. I discovered that not only did I have to exercise and eat healthier to lose the weight, I'd have to keep doing the same things to keep that weight off. So far I have been successful in the losing but not so much on the maintaning part.

Every time I lose weight, I get stressed out when I gain a little back. This, compounded by the pressure I feel at work at with all my "grown-up" responsibilities, just makes me stressed even more.

When I get stressed, I eat and the weight comes back a little more (I know I need to stop eating my feelings -- I'm working on that). Then I quit exercising completely. After several hits and misses, I decided that I needed a new approach and I'm going to do it with my favorite workout: yoga.

July 18, 2012

Crazy Dream

I had this weird dream last night: I was in a bedroom and I was watching this yellow snake and an orange gecko chasing each other around the room. For some strange reason I didn't feel scared or threatened by it. 

For a moment I thought it was the gecko attacking the snake but in the end, I was surprised to see the snake swallow its attacker whole. After the whole thing, the snake slowly slithered next to me on the bed I was lying on and slept beside me. After that, I woke up.

After a weird dream like that, I had to look for an interpretation online. This was what I found on Yahoo Answers: